Hey guys,

Making this video was an interesting and exhausting experience for me. I wasn't able to make the background completly black because youtube wouldn't allow me to post it with a black background. On the one hand I wasn't feeling as sad as I thought I would be. But all these quotes still reminded me of my life. That's why I had a lot of flashbacks during the editing. There were moments were I had to stop and actually just cried.
Not everything is bad in my life at the moment. I recently got some medication to help me and they really begin to work.
I still have really bad moments and I still cry everynight because I hate myself and everything about my life. But during the day I can sometimes be happy or maybe just pretend to be happy. I don't know.
But this video isn't just about me, it's about all of us.
Please remember that you're not alone! I know it's almost impossible to believe that but it's the truth.
We aren't defined by our depression or other mental illnesses. We are human and we're allowed to cry, to scream and also to love.
You made it this far, please don't end it now.

If you have serious suicidal thoughts please get medical help.

Love,
Ricki

Song: "To build a home" by The Cinematic Orchestra
Song at the end: Olafur Arnalds - Happiness Does Not Wait (Original Mix)